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A Chapter Closed: Avi Siwa and Eric Allison Resolve the Gold Bar Dispute

A personal note on the resolution of the gold bar dispute, choosing peace, and moving forward with truth.

August 23, 2026 · 2 min
Startup · July 29, 2026

Where My Motivation Comes From

People often ask me where I find the strength to keep building. The truth is, my motivation comes from some of the hardest seasons of my life.

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Startup · July 27, 2026

Fire Fast. Hire Slow.

Today, I made one of the hardest decisions I've had to make as a founder. I let someone go. And yes, it happened much earlier than I expected.

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Motherhood · July 16, 2026

How I Manage Business While Being a Mom

People ask how I balance building companies with being a present mom. The truth? I don't believe in perfect balance. I believe in priorities.

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Beauty · July 15, 2026

The Best Anti-Aging Skincare Routine in 2026

Growing older is a privilege. Here's the anti-aging routine I recommend in 2026 - simple, consistent, and backed by science.

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Dating · July 15, 2026

11 Years Single: Why I Never Gave Up on Love

For the past 11 years, I've been single. Here's why I never gave up on love — and why being single is not a failure.

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Startup · July 15, 2026

How to Build an App in 2026 (Even If You're Not a Developer)

With today's AI tools, building an app has never been more accessible. Here's exactly how I built HOOKED.

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Startup · July 14, 2026

Organize Your Life Ruthlessly

A founder's greatest asset isn't time. It's clarity. Building a startup is hard enough. The last thing you need is unnecessary chaos competing for your attention.

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Dating · July 14, 2026

Confidence Is Your Best Dating Strategy

The most attractive thing you can bring to a date isn't perfection—it's confidence. For a long time, people have believed that success in dating comes from looking a certain way, saying the right things, or trying to impress someone. I don't believe that's true.

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Beauty · July 13, 2026

The Beauty of Slowing Down

What happens when skincare becomes meditation instead of another task? In a world that celebrates productivity, beauty has quietly become another item on the to-do list. But what if getting ready wasn't another task? What if it became a ritual?

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Motherhood · July 10, 2026

Being a Single Mom Isn't My Weakness. It's My Superpower.

I promised myself I would break the cycle. Then life had other plans. Here's how becoming a single mom became my greatest strength.

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Beauty · July 7, 2026

Looking Expensive Has Very Little to Do With Money

The habits that create timeless beauty. Looking polished isn't about wearing the latest designer label or following every beauty trend. More often, it's the little details that leave a lasting impression.

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Startup · July 4, 2026

From Swipes to Dates: Discover HOOKED’s Vision

When I started building HOOKED, I wasn’t trying to create another dating app. I wanted to build something that helps people actually meet. For years, dating apps have optimized for engagement. Endless swiping. Endless chatting. Endless “may…

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Motherhood · July 1, 2026

The Art of Co-Parenting

Some of the hardest battles are the ones your children should never have to witness. People often ask me what it's like to co-parent.

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Beauty · June 30, 2026

A Signature Scent Is Invisible Style

The most unforgettable thing you'll wear today isn't what people see. Long after someone forgets what you were wearing, they'll often remember how you made them feel. That's the quiet power of fragrance.

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Startup · May 12, 2026

A Reintroduction: Same Fire. New Story. Still - Unapologetically AVI SIWA.

https://www.imdb.com/name/nm2208127 I became a model by accident. At 21, I walked into a casting just for fun. I didn’t care whether I got the job or not, and that carefree attitude was probably my secret weapon. The director loved my look,…

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Dating · May 8, 2026

The Conversation That Creates Chemistry

Great conversations don't happen because you have the perfect lines. They happen because you're genuinely curious.

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Startup · April 5, 2026

Bootstrapping vs. Raising Capital: Which Path Is Right for You?

The best funding strategy isn't the one everyone talks about. It's the one that fits your vision. One of the first questions founders ask is whether they should raise money or bootstrap their startup.

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Dating · April 5, 2026

The Marriage Proposal I Couldn't Say Yes To

Sometimes saying "no" isn't rejecting someone. It's being honest with yourself. In 2026, I was asked one of the biggest questions a person can ever hear.

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Startup · March 31, 2026

How to Stay Motivated When Your Startup Feels Like It's Going Nowhere

The hardest part of building a startup isn't the work. It's believing in the vision before anyone else does. Every founder experiences it.

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Dating · March 15, 2026

The Day I Tattooed HOOKED on My Skin

It was never just a logo. It was proof that my heart was still capable of loving again. For eleven years, I protected my heart.

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Dating · March 1, 2026

That First Love Who Broke Me

Sometimes the people who hurt us the most end up teaching us the lessons we needed most. I used to think my first heartbreak was the end of my story.

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Startup · February 18, 2026

HOOKED Soft Launch: Where Modern Dating Meets Real-Life Chemistry

There’s something about love in the modern world that feels… complicated. We have dating apps everywhere. We have endless options. We have swiping, liking, ghosting, situationships, and “what are we?” conversations that could honestly quali…

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Startup · February 2, 2026

My Next Moves: February Is All About FOCUS

February is not about dreaming. It’s not about planning endlessly. And it’s definitely not about explaining myself. February is about FOCUS . I just finished designing the cover of my book Empress Mindset and with that came a promise to mys…

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Startup · January 2, 2026

Moving Into 2026 Like the Empress

New Year’s Eve 2025, Edsa Shangrila Hotel, Philippines 2025 was not a year - it was a test. A test of patience. A test of faith. A test of how deeply I trusted myself when the world tried to shake my crown. And here’s the truth: I didn’t ju…

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Dating · December 17, 2025

The Cost of Labels - and Why You Might Be Better Off without Them

In today’s world, everything needs a box. A definition. A title. A label. We’ve somehow convinced ourselves that labels make life clearer, more meaningful, more valid. As if putting a name on something magically stabilizes it. B…

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Startup · December 1, 2025

What It Takes

People talk about chasing dreams like it’s a pretty journey…vision boards, motivation quotes, and “you got this” energy. But the truth? What it takes is much harder, messier, and far more demanding than most will ever admit. It’…

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Motherhood · November 23, 2025

Gorgeous at the End - As A Single Mom

Robin Sharma - the mind behind The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari - once said, “Change is hard at first, messy in the middle, and gorgeous at the end.” If there’s one quote that feels like it was written for my life story, it’s this one. When I …

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Dating · November 21, 2025

Choosing The Crown Over Love

I’m sprinting again. From one meeting to the next, negotiating deals as if everything depends on it- an empire, my empire. As I move through boardrooms, calls, deadlines and decisions, my mind flickers to the only two souls who …

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Startup · November 17, 2025

Running My Own Race: Escaping the Rat Race - Or So I Thought

I remember dropping out of college - University of Santo Tomas - after reading Rich Dad, Poor Dad. That book changed everything for me. It made me see the world differently. Suddenly, I didn’t want to be part of the system anymo…

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Startup · November 5, 2025

How to Build An Empire - From Scratch.

They say empires aren’t built overnight… but they are built from a decision. A decision to start, even when you have nothing. No capital. No support. No permission. Just a vision burning so fiercely that even failure becomes fue…

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Motherhood · November 4, 2025

Single Mom And Owning It

It happened one ordinary night. The girls were in their pajamas, hair still wet from the shower, giggling about something on TV. Then, in between laughter, one of them said it- “Mommy, we want to have a daddy.” I smiled. I tried…

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Dating · November 2, 2025

When You’ve Been Strong Too Long - Learning to Be Loved Again

There comes a time when strength stops feeling like empowerment and starts feeling like exhaustion. You wake up one day and realize - you’ve been in survival mode for so long that peace feels suspicious, kindness feels temporary…

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Startup · October 29, 2025

Becoming the Storm: Owning Your Power, Owning the Room, Owning the World

What was meant to destroy me became the fire that built me. I was called a scammer. Splashed on headlines, whispered in gossip circles, and judged by people who never even knew my name - only the story someone else told. If you …

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Startup · October 26, 2025

I Refuse to Blend In

From what I can remember, I was always the center of attention - in school, at parties, everywhere I went. I loved standing out. I loved the spotlight. And I’ve never, not once, wanted to blend in or hide myself. Even as a kid, …

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Startup · October 24, 2025

The Season of Becoming

“This isn’t the season of success. This is the season of becoming.” The sprint of being an entrepreneur since I was 17 years old was never a straight line up. It was wild, unpredictable, and painfully beautiful. I started with n…

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Motherhood · October 20, 2025

A Decade of Love, Lessons, and Little Miracles

A love letter to my daughter and the woman I became because of her We just celebrated Victoria’s 10th birthday - and as I watched her blow out her candles, I felt something shift inside me. I realized I wasn’t just celebrating h…

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Motherhood · October 14, 2025

Never Again: Floods Shouldn’t Be Our Normal

Every year, the floods return - uninvited, unrelenting, and unforgiving. And yet, what’s even more heartbreaking than the floodwaters are the stories that repeat with them: homes lost, children carried through waist-deep waters,…

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Startup · August 1, 2025

Coming Soon: The Empress Mindset - A Book Written in Real Time, From the Rise

There’s a kind of silence no one talks about… The silence of building something huge, while no one’s clapping. The silence between “Are you sure about this?” and “I knew you could do it.” For years, I lived in that silence. And I wrote. I w…

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Beauty · June 18, 2025

The Business of Beauty: How Sustainability is Reshaping the Skincare Industry

“True beauty isn’t just what you see in the mirror-it’s what you choose to stand for.” - Avi Siwa The pursuit of beauty is as old as humanity itself. From Cleopatra’s milk baths to the intricate skincare rituals of ancient Asia, beauty has …

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Startup · June 4, 2025

The Shift: From Distraction to Domination

Empress in Action At the start of the year, I had two things on my mind: launch a beauty brand and build a world-class ad agency. No grand strategy, no drawn-out roadmaps-just action. I move fast, and I build as I go. And while that energy …

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Startup · January 19, 2025

When It All Burns Down: Starting Over Fearlessly

Watching the news about the devastating fires in Los Angeles, I couldn’t help but feel a deep connection to the stories of loss and rebuilding. As an outsider, seeing homes and lives go up in flames reminded me of my own moments when my wor…

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Beauty · September 8, 2024

From Setbacks to Starting Over: My Journey to Creating Avi Siwa Beauty

When I started this journey, I never imagined how many twists and turns it would take. As a former model, actress, and TV host, I was no stranger to the spotlight, but transitioning into the business world was a whole new challenge. After y…

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